spiritual warfare. i used to think about this fairly often. i don’t anymore. which might be a lot of my ‘problem’.
life isn’t bad by any means, but i am tired a lot. worn down. i feel like my energy wains and comes and goes. which in turn makes me seem moody. i can even catch myself sometimes wondering why i am moody. when in reality it’s not moody. it’s just a permanent level of exhaustion. is this okay? i’m thinking not, but maybe.
paul, one of Christ’s greatest servants. he is very often tired, worn down, beaten down, whatever you choose to call it. however, he still finds joy in all situations. i like to think i find joy in all those situations, but i am by no means perfect. i struggle with this concept sometimes. i want to have a good attitude, and give others the best, what they deserve, but sometimes i am just so stinkin’ tired.
so part of me thinks it might be spiritual warfare, just unknown. something that is weighing me down. that’s fine, we can work on that. but maybe, just maybe there is a lot more i can do.
worship may be a fantastic way to combat spiritual warfare. continuous worship with the Father. worship through prayer, worship through song, worship through writing, worship through caring for others concerns, worship through going on a run or ride through nature and enjoying every once of beauty He gave us on this cursed earth, or even worship through rest. i need to find myself putting on that spirit of worship more often than i do. to see all things as worship.
i think i am going to focus on this topic for awhile in my life. give it my thought and time. let it soak in, practice it and embrace it.
we sometimes need to ‘dwell’ on things to get it. at least i know i always have to dwell in something to really understand it, embrace it and live it. if i don’t live it, it’s worthless.
oh thinking outloud. thanks blog.
it boggles my mind to its very core when idiots open their mouths. i mean, i can understand if you just don’t realize you’re a moron. but seriously, if you know for a fact you have no idea what you’re talking about, say that. tell people, i have no idea about the working class conditions of middle income housing financial crisis, if they ask you that specific question, which is highly impossible considering that i just made up the working class conditions of middle income housing financial crisis for this examples sake. but lets all agree, if you don’t have a good answer, or have no idea what your opinion is, or don’t know that words people are using when they talk to you, it’s a fairly safe assumption, do not answer ever. it will save you from looking like an imbecile.
just as an fyi, i’m not irritated, it just surprises me how much stupid can come out of people. stop lying and acting like you know what you’re talking about weirdos.
haha, i wish i knew what the working class conditions of middle income housing financial crisis was, because it sounds like something that might be interesting, even though i totally made it up.
i am going to work on being funny. it seems like i might enjoy being funny. i love to laugh.
i think i need to find some more coffee soon…
Change in our world. Change in my world. Maybe if my world is God’s world.
I can’t sleep, all I can think about are the possibilities and potential of this generation. I’ve never thought about it until this moment as I write, but I can completely relate to Moses, I am terrified. I have prayed before that God would make me great in His Kingdom, to serve Him with the skills He has blessed me with, or in some senses, cursed me with. But in relation to Moses I am feel called to this greater thing, but oh my gosh, I feel like a million butterflies are crawling my stomach and filing me with a nervous anticipation. It is life, and it’s gonna be more than I am even imagine.
I have been reading in Ezra tonight, I didn’t really know a lot about Ezra, but I am so glad I chose to read through it. Wow, he is a man of God if I’ve ever heard of one. His thinking lines up so perfect with what I have learned to be true and important and righteous in life. He believes with all his heart that it is vitally important to spend time in Scripture and Worship of God. To Ezra, the Word of God and the Worship of THE God of Heaven were the two integral pieces of maintaining our Identity as the People of God. We change our identity or sustain this identity without spending time in scripture & worshiping our God. How basic. We try so hard to change ourselves and do things to help and blah blah blah. It’s so simple. I wonder if this is where the Church as we know it has gone wrong, did we forget how to find and solidify our Identity? So many people in the world, even the Christian subculture are so confused as to who they are. Well, no wonder, we forgot the simple basic stuff. At least understanding how important it is.
We live in a generation where things will change. Christianity will come to a place, in my opinion, where we (Christians) will have to make a huge choice if we’re going to live our faith or if we’ll walk the fence. Personally, I hope and pray for the courage to make the choice to live a life that is totally free. A life where I know exactly what my Identity is, and knowing what my identity is with such conviction that I know exactly what my course of action should and will be. Strength given through my Identity, Christ. Ah, so simple!
I feel like i just woke up, like I’ve been in a trance or asleep while life has been happening but I haven’t be there to live it. I am alive now, it’s time to decide again what life is going to be, remind myself again what my Identity is and maintain, solidify and make it forever.
Thank you God for wisdom, knowledge, Your Word, whatever I am meaning to say right now. Thanks for giving me breath you didn’t promise me 37 minutes ago.
Do yourself a favor, get in Ezra and read it up. Then read it again. Then think about it. Don’t just read it, read it. If you have the time, you know…
it seems like when night comes and distractions are virtually gone, so much more thought can occur.
perfection in the eyes of the world and Christ are so drastically different.
oswald chambers had some thought on it too:
“Christian perfection is not, and never can be, human perfection. Christian perfection is the perfection of a relationship to God which shows itself amid the irrelevancies of human life. When you obey the call of Jesus Christ, the first thing that strikes you is the irrelevancy of the things you have to do, and the next thing that strikes you is the fact that other people seem to be living perfectly consistent lives. Such lives are apt to leave you with the idea that God is unnecessary, by human effort and devotion we can reach the standard God wants. In a fallen world this can never be done. I am called to live in perfect relation to God so that my life produces a longing after God in other lives, not admiration for myself. Thoughts about myself hinder my usefulness to God. God is not after perfecting me to be a specimen in His show-room; He is getting me to the place where He can use me. Let Him do what He likes.”
so profound. it gives me reassurance when the things of this world become more and more mundane. the monotonous routine of things that there is so little eternal value in. why continue at the grindstone beating our heads against the stone for something that achieves virtually nothing in matter of eternity. — how can we be drawn back into the beauty of Christ without this struggle in our earthly lives. if life was too easy and simply ‘fluff’ then we would be a world no longer in need of a Savior. as difficult as it can be learning though the commonplace repetitive lives we sometimes feel imprisoned to, it is what we’ve been given. it’s our responsibility to see the honest love in pursuing greater more holy things. whatever it takes to further the Kingdom. i need to constantly ask myself, am i doing Kingdom work?
faith, hope & love. the greatest of these is love.
