spiritual warfare. i used to think about this fairly often. i don’t anymore. which might be a lot of my ‘problem’.
life isn’t bad by any means, but i am tired a lot. worn down. i feel like my energy wains and comes and goes. which in turn makes me seem moody. i can even catch myself sometimes wondering why i am moody. when in reality it’s not moody. it’s just a permanent level of exhaustion. is this okay? i’m thinking not, but maybe.
paul, one of Christ’s greatest servants. he is very often tired, worn down, beaten down, whatever you choose to call it. however, he still finds joy in all situations. i like to think i find joy in all those situations, but i am by no means perfect. i struggle with this concept sometimes. i want to have a good attitude, and give others the best, what they deserve, but sometimes i am just so stinkin’ tired.
so part of me thinks it might be spiritual warfare, just unknown. something that is weighing me down. that’s fine, we can work on that. but maybe, just maybe there is a lot more i can do.
worship may be a fantastic way to combat spiritual warfare. continuous worship with the Father. worship through prayer, worship through song, worship through writing, worship through caring for others concerns, worship through going on a run or ride through nature and enjoying every once of beauty He gave us on this cursed earth, or even worship through rest. i need to find myself putting on that spirit of worship more often than i do. to see all things as worship.
i think i am going to focus on this topic for awhile in my life. give it my thought and time. let it soak in, practice it and embrace it.
we sometimes need to ‘dwell’ on things to get it. at least i know i always have to dwell in something to really understand it, embrace it and live it. if i don’t live it, it’s worthless.
oh thinking outloud. thanks blog.
